Quote of The Day

"What if I'm used to the loneliness ? to being alone ? I think that's what scares me the most."

-My thoughts on a rainy day

KIAS Training 2013

Hi Bloggies ! so just yesterday I had a pretty amazing day with my friends from KIAS.Well,it's basically an organization for all journalist,photographer and editor in my school. And yes,we run the school magazine ! This post is going to be one of those post with sooooooo many pictures in it.It's all by me though. SO I do hope you enjoyed it,comments and constructive critics are very welcomed !

This training took place at a tea garden in Wonosari.They said that this tea garden is the one garden that provide tea supplies to all cities in East Java ! The place is nice,it's good to just spend time away from the crowds of the city.But don't get your hopes too high,you won't find anything fancy here.But for me,that's the thing that made the tea garden relieving.

We arrived at about 9.00 a.m and we started the activity right away. We set some place to gather and sit,and then the lecturers gave us some tips and tricks about how to be a better photographer,journalist and editor.I Think it would be something very useful for the future,you know,since we have to run the school magazine.

So after the all the lectures,comes the fun part.We were divided into some groups,we took a ride with the so called "Kereta Kelinci" around the tea garden. We stopped at a particular area of the garden where some of the seniors had been waiting for us. They'll give us some challenge (which is writing two articles about a particular subject;mine is HIV/AIDS) and then we move on to the next post,and the next one,and the next one.I think it's kinda cool where they packed a training into fun and games like this. I think this is how a training/coaching should be. Not the I'll-make-your-life-more-miserable kind of coaching.*cough cough* *being cyinical* *no offense*

strike a pose.

 

Here's a picture of me with my team mates !

 

After we go through all of the posts,we played some games (again) and head to the mosque to clean ourselves and pray. After that,we eat our lunch and.......make a wall magazine ! yes,it was the last part of the training. The seniors gave us a styrofoam,some decorative papers,some materials and some tools to make it in three hours. We did our best,but I don't think we could win because all of them were so great ! It's fine though,because we had a lot of fun doing it !

It was a good experience. And now,I am officially a member of KIAS. I do hope that with the help of my friends,I could make KIAS better and better throughout the year. Bismillah....

Gratitude

Hola bloggies,it's december 7th and that means just a week away from my birthday.I still can't believe this is my second birthday here at my blog. I just want to say thank you,mostly to Allah and my family for always be there for me.And also for music,for Taylor Swift and for Ke$ha,and to those people whose songs I listened to in rainy days.I also want to thank my friends. I don't have many but I guess that's better than no friends at all,or even a thousand backstabber.

I also want to happily say that I got a new computer for my (early) birthday present ! thank youuuuu mom & dad :) But this time of year,first of all instead of asking for presents I want to look back and see what kind of person I am this past year. Is it good ? is it bad ? what kind of behavior should I change ? do I have any bad habits ? have I reached my goal yet?

Sadly I have to say that I have a lot to change in my personality,I haven't do anything special nor productive this past year,I also haven't reach my goal (being skinny is on of them). I honestly have nothing to do but to dramatically wipe off my tears and set a new goal and also make myself promise to always work hard in the future.Bismillah....

Anyways ! this post is also to thank my friend,Farah.For always supporting me when I'm down,and for always be happy with me when I'm on top. Thank you thank you thank you and please don't ever change :)

Birthday Wishlist !

It's December ! that means....my birthday ! it's my second birthday here at my blog and I think I done quite well on the "constantly writing" part since I usually have this blog,write for like a week and then abandoning the blog,and the cycle goes on and on and on...till now ! I must say that I'm a little bit proud of myself :)

So here it is my wish list for my birthday,it's never too early for a wish list !I know I won't get all of these stuff for my birthday but..it's my wishlist ! I can surely put anything I want,right ?

P.S : I do hope my parents accidentally visit my blog and see this post.

 

from top left to the right : a complete series of the sims 3,iMac,torres bag,gibson hummingbird guitar,mon monogram wallet,harman kardon speakers,chanel no.5 parfum

so...yeah. 

Sambat

Hi blog readers ! Some of you might've wonder,what does 'sambat' means ? or 'is that even a word ?' while the fact is,it is a word.well,in javanese at least. Sambat is an activity where you keep moaning about how miserable your life is,or how you didn't get something you've always wanted.So...what ? what's so special about 'sambat' that I use it as a title ?

well,funny (but actually inspiring) story happened today.This week is my exam week so we got our classes mixed up with the sophomores.As you can see,this can be a little bit frightening since I was always a anti-social person,a freak who always freaked out whenever I have to meet someone new,and to be honest,it is true.I mean,I think about it a lot the day before the exam week starts,about how should I act and react when I meet new people,about how to deal with seniors,and stuff like that. But Alhamdulillah,things work out great...at least for now.So back to the story,a few minutes before the exam starts,my teacher hand out the exam and the answer sheets.The senior started to...shout,to put it easily.They said "Pak soalnya kurang !" "Pak belom dapet soal !" "Paakkk soal saya manaaa" and then there's this one girl,I don't know if she was a senior or not,said "Sambat ae rek,rek." and then there's this BOOM again inside my head...

why ? ever since I overheard that sentence,I keep thinking about myself.Ya Allah...I've been so ungrateful lately,I always "sambat" about how things didn't work out the way I want it to be.I always "sambat" about my failure in doing stuff,rather than keep trying and trying and praying.

So I do hope that this experience today made me a better me.Aamin...

Some Things Just Don't Make Sense

"I walked with my head down,trying to block you out cause I'll never impress you"

Hi,I haven't blogged for a while. I guess you can call that I am on a hiatus. Although I don't really have an intention to do it. And sadly, my first post after a long time of not-posting-anything on my blog is rather....sad. I would really love to say that everything is alright. Everything is going perfect. But the fact is...no. Things just seems to get worse. My grades..my social life....well, I know that life is not all about good grades and social life. But for me, both as a teenager and as a student it is one of the most important things in my life.

I really have no idea how could things go wrong. I mean..I've done everything just in the way I used to do it. Is that not enough ? Is this the time that I have to step up my game ? What level am I supposed to reachhhhhhhhh

I know this might sounds a little bit alay and overrated. But...I just can't hold it any longer. When will this pile of mess called "my life" be back in order ? People keep telling me that I'm thinking too much of the little things that doesn't really matter. But the real thing is that,to me,the little things,the little details are what matter the most. I guess you could say that I am a perfectionist. Sadly,I haven't found a good way to chase perfections. 

The real reason of why I haven't blogged lately is I don't want to be this person who always thought that their life is the most miserable life ever. Well,besides the fact that since I started high school,I don't have as much time for myself as I used to. But I just can't hold it. (Soap Opera much ?) How can you hold on to something,when you don't have something to hold on to ? Something to keep you feel that life is worth living. I used to have that back in my younger years,friends. (And yes,you can simply conclude that I still don't have friends.)

I have this so-called "friends" who always point out my flaws. She always makes me feel like I'm useless,and everything I do is wrong. I also have this "friend" that always had this "ew" stare to me. YES,AND ONLY TO ME :). I thought they teach you not to pick your friends,but choose your friends wisely at kindegarten or preschool. They both feel like they were the fairest of them all. They both also think that all things they said were never hurtful to anyone. Well thank you so much,your words just made my day. 

All I want to say was "why you gotta be so mean and such a pain in the ass ?" I took a pity on someone who had to point out the others' flaws just so they feel powerful. Now after a "deep thinking time",I used to have a way to deal with a certain situation or a certain kind of people. But for this one...no. I haven't been on this kind of situation, or dealing with this kind of people before. Have you ? If so, please kindly tell me how to deal with it. 

I just want you people who read this post to know that this post is just a piece of things I wanted to say. There's a lot more feelings that I can't turn into words. 

I don't even know how to end this post but...yeah. This is it. I hope those people I mentioned earlier get my message, and then I hope you'll know what to do. 

My Very First Football Experience

Okay,the title looks like something that a five year old kindegarten kid would write. But I am not a five year old kindegarten kid,so I guess that shows how lame I am. But that is the truth !! There's a gym class today,but the boys and I had already finished the exam,so we got some free time. You know how boys+free time at gym class will be. Yes ! Football ! But I guess you also know that I am a huge sucker at football. Well,actually I am a sucker at all sports.I only wanted to watch them play,but then I thought "Hey,why not join the game instead of sitting around for two hours ?

I must admit I really wanted to have the ability to play football,but I've never got any guts to even try playing it.The thing is,I can't even do the basics such as kicking the ball in the right way. But my classmates are soooooo nice ! They insist me to play with them. Well yeah,it's because they're running out of team members,but the fact that they even consider me is sooo nice of them :) so I don't know how,I just ended up in the field. I'm not running around like the other guys,but the feel of standing between them for the first time is just amazing ! I feel a huge adrenaline rush !!!

Okay,that's too dramatic.

They even let me kick the ball for the first time without intervention !!!!!!!!!!!!!

They also said this thing : "hey,I can't play football either,but I still join in the game and you should too." I know it's a big lie because they're all sooooooooo good at football,but the fact that they said it to...I don't know,support me ? To make me feel like I'm not the only one ? It's just so nice of them ! 

To all of my classmates,thank you thank you thank you !!