Saturday, July 27, 2013

About High School..

So I have this huge emotion raging in my head,there's sooo much thing happened at the same time lately. Bad things. I am trying to be aware of something like this. I know that someday;this thing would be my precious experience. The one that makes me stronger. I know that sooner or later,bad things will turn out to be okay. But stil...it hurts a lot,when it really happens. You probably wondering what I've been talking about. Now I would really like to answer that question but the thing is;I don't know. I really don't know what's wrong with me. I feel like I'm the most unlucky person ever. I feel like I can't easily make friends as my other friends do. Sure,I knew some great people. But they fall into my "acquaintance" category. I feel like I'll never find someone as nice as Farah,as supportive as Chipy,and so on and so on. I also feel like I always failed on something I tried to do. Maybe I need to put more efforts in it ? If so,why do I feel like I've put so much effort on everything,yet with disappointing results ?

The lessons are harder,the lectures are not helping at all. Now I'm starting to feel the wild side of this jungle called "high school". Sure,the seniors are nice,I also feel so blessed and grateful for being accepted there. But there's no homey feel there. Or is it too early to conclude ? I also feel lonelier,much much lonelier than before. I feel like those friends who has been around are way too much cooler to hang out with me anymore. I also feel like I have no support from my family. I guess they're all toooo busy with their stuffs. Can't blame them,why would they want to watch me 24/7 ?

I also feel like I can never make my parents proud and happy. If only they knew that I've tried. I feel like a failure,and to me,this is one of those days where the words "I can do this,I'm strong enough to go through this" is not enough. This is one of those days where "everything will be alright" from those who care about me (If I really do have one) is not enough. It just still feels so bad that I think I need professional help. Lately I also feel like my friends don't care about what I feel at all. Whenever they let me down,they just don't care. They act like nothing happened. Is this because of something I do ? If so,please kindly tell me. I've told them many times,they said nothing wrong about me,nor about them. But if so,why do I feel so bad ? "Perks" of being a teenager,i guess. (See the connotation ?) 

This last paragraph is a little bit out of topic. Lately I've been thinking about my posts,especially the ones with the "personal" tag on it. I have those loooooonggg sad post where I complain about how life is not fair,how they didn't treat me well,and so on and so on. I also re-read about my "happy post" how I write a short post with short sentences during my "happy" period. And this conclusion comes : I've been complaining about life a lot that I'm starting to be a master of it. From that conclusion,come back to this simple philosophy : be grateful. I think I've been so negative lately that I forgot to be grateful to Allah for all His blessings. I've been so negative lately that I let small things irritate me. Astaghfirullah...

So I don't know if this post would be useful for you guys. I don't know if my experience could taught you a lesson. But one thing for sure,i just want to write this down. Taylor said that if you have this huge emotion raging and you want to write it down but you don't know where to start;just write from where it begins. So I did. this post might seem so complicated and full of random sentences;but this is what's inside my head. 

Yes,welcome to my world. 

Oh Good Lord please give me power and sincerity to accept anything you give to me with a huge sense of gratitude,even if it's bad,even if it's not what I wanted. Aamin. 

Thursday, July 25, 2013

Try To Copy Me

Wondering around the web,it's a huge place.But funny thing happened : I found a blog that copied some of my previous stuffs.I won't tell you what's the blog nor who runs it.he/she has already deleted the post though.I feel flattered because this person decided that he/she like my post so much that he/she want to "reblog" it.yet it is very annoying and irritating because I'm one of those hipster who doesn't like to be copied :-)))

Yes,this person might not be copying an award winning book or essay.But still,it is mine and I have a sense of belonging to it.Even though these are cheesy writings, I can never write the same stuff again.Because I have to feel in order to write,a nd I don't really want to feel the same way as I feel back then when I wrote these posts.To whoever having the same experience as I do, you can always report these kinds of copyrights infringement to Google.They won't respond shortly, that's for sure.But at least you did something to save your precious writings. Read more about war against plagiarism here
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Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Saturday, July 13, 2013

Terra-fic !

Sooooo yesterday I've got a chance to try the a new bistro near my house called Terra.I really have no idea what is it,what kind of food they sell,or what kind of restaurant Terra is.So I decided to google it,and after the first click "WHOAH" is literally what comes out from my mouth ! "Luxury" is the first word I thought when I saw those pictures online.They said that they've got this modern-retro as their theme (we already have a chemistry here !) and they sells italian food.Like,pure italian food because they "imported" the chef.
When we arrived at the restaurant,I fell in love with how the waitresses dress ! yes,you can guess it.black from head to toe.a black pony-tailed hair with a black tight mini dress and a pair of black pumps.chic ! kinda reminds me of that italian restaurant Giuliana and Bill got.They welcomed us warmly and let us pick our own seats.We picked the one on the balcony because the restaurant is located on top of Harvest (yes,my favorite patisserie !) so I think it would be nice to have an italian dinner while looking into the night sky (spoiler : it doesn't feel that good).
The waitresses came in and gave us our menu........that we can't read.like seriously,they write all the menus in italian.They do have the little description in the bottom of the name but that takes a long time to read.because this is a breakfast;not an usual dinner,I thought that I have to eat some rice so my choice goes to Chicken Devile with Basmati Rice (clearly have no idea what that is).I ordered this strawberry with lemon juice mocktail (the name is too hard to remember) a pan of pizza,and something something something strawberry for dessert (the name is also too hard to remember)
The waitress gave us this beautiful french bread with olive oil.confession : although I love experimenting with different kinds of cuisine,this is the first time that I literally eat a french bread with olive oil.Funny thing happened while we waited for our food : My sister saw a fish inside the vase ! like really !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG

A living fish.

This place is already my favorites ! The pizza came first,with my sister's chicken curry.They got this thin crispy pizza base,I've heard that this is the real italian pizza,but I don't know if it tastes the same (since I've never been to Italy before) but the bottom of the pizza is a little bit scorched,leaving a little bitter taste.But it still taste good ! I mean,the fact that my sister wants to eat a pizza with cheese... (which is her least favorite food in the whole wide world;like,please,anything but cheese.) it must be that good to make someone who doesn't like it wanted to try it,right ?


 So my order came up,this what it looks like :

To be honest,it is presented nicely;BUT when I look at the food and the rice,it doesn't appetite me.And the shape of the rice is long and thin,unlike any rice I've ever seen before.I guess that's why it's called Basmati ? But the focus point of the food is always the taste ! so I tried it and it turns out that I love it.The rice got a similar taste with nasi uduk,and the chicken taste like...well,a spicy barbeque.They got a small portion,that's true.But it doesn't mean that I'm not full ! I guess they put some magic in the rice so that even though you only eat a small portion of it,you feel full and satisfied.I hope they sell this goods in supermarkets.

Oh ! I also tried mas Eri's order which is bowls of samplers : 
that hairy thing on the upper left side of the photo wow-ed me.It tastes like french fries but what kind of potato has green for its color ?!?!?!? But overall it's not that amazing so...yeah.


 Funny how they said that we should eat dessert first while the real thing is that they still served it after the main course.Very funny,Terra.For a bistro,I think they've got an ordinary desert,like...I can still make some these at home.Yes,of course they've got some specialty but it doesn't attract me.I still love Blooms's desert.

So after the desert,we called it a night.They gave us this little form to fill.It's about guest comment,I think it's good that they have these because not many restaurants really care about what their customer think whereas for a new restaurant,it is important to improve their services.

This Terra restaurant is a new experience for me.Yes,it is one of my favorites,but I don't think that we can just randomly ask someone for lunch at Terra.this place is those kind of places for your fancy night with family,or a black tie event,or maybe a birthday dinner.Matching stuffs with Terra : Chanel No.5

Since my sister hasn't eat anything glut,we decided to stop by Bakso Gun.Aaah,nothing will ever beat meatballs ! 

P.S : All photos are taken with my iPhone camera,I'm so surprised to the fact that it can make great photos ! good for travelers.But still...me-want-Pentax-Q10 !!!

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Chanel No.5

What do you think about when you heard "Chanel no.5 ?" I'm not going to sugarcoat it but when I heard the name for the first time,the first thing that popped out from my mouth was "what is that ?" I am soooo lame haha.Little did I know that it was one of the most successful and popular fragrance in the world ! after I heard it's name I get curious and curiouser (as Alice from Alice in Wonderland would say)  and so I did a little,no,HUGE research on Chanel no.5.Even my sister calls me obsessed..and to be honest I really don't know why.I've never liked the smell of man's fragrance.I think it's too strong for me,but I've never smelled the perfume too so I decided to buy a bottle :

Elegance was the first word,I love the classic laboratory vial shape of the bottle,kinda reminds me of ice block.I don't know but I think the perfect sentence to describe the perfume was : "It's so Chanel".
So I will tell you a little history behind this famous perfume.as we all know,the perfume was made by a russian-french perfumer,Ernest Beaux in 1920s.Mademoiselle Chanel said that she wanted a woman's perfume with a woman's scent.They said that Ernest went all around the world to seek beautiful notes for Chanel's fragrance,he uses over 80 scents to make all five samples to give to Mademoiselle Chanel,some said that he also inspired by the smell of arctic water under the midnight sun.And so,Monsieur Beaux present 5 samples to Mademoiselle Chanel,Chanel smell it all and she said that she like the fifth sample,that's why it's called Chanel no.5.Some also said that Chanel chooses no.5 because it's her lucky number.


The bottle was designed by Mademoiselle Chanel herself,that's why it is so simple because as we all know,Chanel's principle was less is more.The stopper itself was inspired by Paris's Place Vendome.Chanel no.5 got famous for Beaux's innovative use of aldehydes.they describe it as a "synthetic lemon-like smell which accentuates the taste of strawberry." They said that because of Chanel no.5,many of our modern perfume uses aldehydes as one of their ingredients.No.5 easily reached the top selling perfume chart,until now.They also made some modern version of Chanel no.5 like Eau de Premier,Eau de Toilette,soaps,bath oils,and so many others.Here are the notes for Chanel no.5 :

Top notes : Adelhydes,Ylang Ylang,Neroli,Bergamot,Lemon
Heart notes : Lilly of the valley,Orris Roots,Iris,Rose,Jasmine
Bottom notes : Amber,Vanilla,Sandalwood,Oakmoss,Patchoulli,Vetiver,Musk

No.5 is so successful that they can have so many great celebrities for their campaign.Brad Pitt was on the last campaign and it said that no.5 was the first female fragrance to use a male actor as their campaign model.They also have a long list of woman who is featured on their campaign such as Catherine Deneuver,Audrey Tatou,Nicole Kidman,Candice Bergen,Suzy Parker,Ali McGraw,and the list goes on and on and on

This might sounds so cliche but whenever I smell this perfume I smell sophistication.Some describe it as a smell of an old lady but I think it's because this is a retro fragrance.For me,as a 15 year old teenager I don't think that this fragrance is suitable for daily wear (even though I use it everyday.) I think this one is perfect for when you go to some evening party,or maybe a date with your boy/girlfriend.Just save your bottle of no.5 for those special occasion.


Oh ! and even though this is a woman fragrance,Jacques Polgues has retouch it in an Eau de Parfum form so it is more modern and not so floral-ish but still has that No.5 identity.So I think that this perfume is also suitable for men.

If you ask me about the price,I don't think that it's soooo expensive that it is overprice.I think for something as iconic as this,it's worth it.I've spent my holiday savings (since I'm not going anywhere either) to buy this,and as I said,it's worth it.But if you're not so sure if you're going to like it or not,try ordering samples from Ebay,but make sure you get the authentic one.Never bought a refill,it's so different and for me the smell is not pleasing my nose.

Here are some ways to identify an authentic bottle of No.5
1.The stopper (cap) is twist-able to every direction,but when you hold it upside down,it won't fall.
2.The label is embossed
3.The label is printed on both sides so you can still read "Chanel" from the back of the bottle.
4.There is a four-digits batch code laser-printed on the bottom-back of the bottle that matches with the one on either on the bottom or the bottom-back side of the box.

If your bottle does have all of those,I am 100% sure that it is authentic.Don't worry about the longevity,Chanel no.5 lasts differently on people.It doesn't stick that long to me,but some people said that they can smell the perfume for the whole day.I guess if they have a short longevity on you,you're just one of those unlucky person who can't wear Chanel no.5


Just Kidding

So back to the business ! I hope that this review helped you a lot,I wanted to do a video review but I got no time since I have to prepare stuff before I go back to school.
To end this post,here are a video about Chanel No.5's achievement and a special relationship between No.5 and Marilyn Monroe 

lovelovelove

Sunday, July 7, 2013

I Should Be Over All The Butterflies

This holiday is sooooooo boring and I thought that I haven't done anything special so I made a cover video of this song that I'm into lately...yes,you guess it ! it's Paramore's Still Into You. I really love how Paramore still add a tiny little drop of pop into their music so it's still listenable.I'm not a rock music lover myself but Paramore is the only exception.so here it is ! I hope you enjoyed it and please do leave comment !

P.S : Sorry for the low quality,I can only upload the low quality version of the video due to the slow internet here :(


Saturday, July 6, 2013

Ignorance Is Your New Best Friend

Let's admit it,everyone hates being ignored.even psychologist said that being ignored stimulates the brain to give a feels-like-physically-harmed reaction.Funny,how people easily said "nononooooo I won't forget you I love you muach" but then the next day he forget about us.Another funny thing I observe lately is that people take "don't forget" as remembering the good old days while actually,we hope that the person still keeps us in their life.they still connect with us,not only keeping us as a memory.It is sucks and almost hurtful to be on the outside looking in,looking at people creating connection while you lost it.I think we all deserve that kind of attention and love,don't we ?

but stating the fact,everyone feels like they are being ignored while the real thing is they're not.I got this conclusion because a lot people told me that they feel ignored while for me,they aren't.so that's why I hate my sensitive side of me.I always try to avoid people who is too sensitive because I am ruthlessly blunt (even though I am trying to fix that part right now) without me realizing that I am also a sensitive person.I wish I could be more careless.

Another funny yet hurtful things happened,a friend that I feel like I'm not as close as I should be actually wanted to talk to me...and I do feel very happy.I do feel like this person finally see me,and so we have a chit chat.I feel that after what I've been trough and after what I've done,it's finally making progress;it's finally showing the result.but horror to me,she also talked about the same thing to other people.......and my heart was broken into pieces.Dramatic,yes;but that is the exact word of how I feel.I feel like "after all this time,I am still in the same place." and silly me,I still try to look on the positive side,this person finally considers me as someone to talk to...I guess I just have to be happy with that.

And so what happened with the person who I thought would be around forever ? who I thought would accept me for whoever I am ? They also let me down,they started to ignore me,and come to me only when they need something.I mean...how hard it is to just say hello...and just asking how are you,what are doing lately and all those chit chat thingy.I personally choose that person over someone who just talk what they wanted to talk about and that's it...it makes me feel like I am needed,like someone finally cares about me.I have a few but...they're gone now.I don't know why,or how.or if they're just too busy or they really hate me or what but one thing I know is that they are not the same person anymore....at least for now.and I do hope things are going to change soon...

lately I also feel like I've been a big disappointment to everyone around me.I feel like I always fail to take care of those people that I love.I really wanted to help,but at the end...things always gone messy.I'm sorry,okay ? I know it's corny and I know that sorry isn't enough but that's the best I could.I really don't know what else to say,or do.I also seriously suspect that all this mess was caused by a curse given to me when I broke a mirror at 5th grade.if so,then this is my 4th year of 7 years of bad luck.I guess I also have to just to be happy with that....

I don't know if this was just a bad week,or it is really because of the 7 years curse of bad luck.but whatever it is...it doesn't affect my dream to go to State Senior High School 1 ! I actually got accepted today,even though I'm not the highest rank and everything but I am THIS  happy :-))) thank you God for all the blessing you've been giving me.and to be honest,I've never been that cool kids who got a perfect score on their every test...I actually don't like studying that much.I only study when I want to study and to be honest,my score is not that great so I guess only a miracle can explain all of this.If only God has twitter,I would spam His mention with a lot of thank yous !!!
I guess this is the only happy stuff that happened throughout this week....OH ! I almost forgot,my sister decided to lend me some money to buy my very own Chanel No.5 !!! yay !!!

photos coming soon.