Reminiscing

"mbak ayo kapan balikkkk hehe"
"balik kemana ? Rumahnya kan disini :-)"
"ya ke malanggg kan ada rumah di malang"
"iya kapan2 yaa"



Ah you,you made my day. :-)

Letters From Juliet

"Dear Claire,
What and if are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together, side by side, and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life. What if ? What if ? What if ? I don't know how your story ended, but if what you felt then was true love, then it's never too late. If it was true then, why wouldn't it be true now? You need only the courage to follow your heart. I don't know what a love like Juliet's feels like, a love to leave loved ones for, a love to cross oceans for. But I'd like to believe, if I ever were to feel it, that I'd have the courage to seize it.

And Claire, if you didn't, I hope one day that you will

All my love,


Juliet

Quoted from the best romantic movie ever, Letters to Juliet.

:)

Focus

I've been feeling not so well lately. "why these people are so annoying" "I hate that" "I hate her" "I hate this" "I don't deserve this" and many more negative thinkings has been going through my mind lately,I don't even know why.Then one day I was sitting in my room all alone,daydreaming about life and thinking "God,I've been a bad person lately. I've let my mood controls me. I'm too focused on the bad side until I can't be grateful to You for blessings that you gave"

That's right,I think for me,focus is one of the most important thing to control if we want to keep happy and positive. If we can control what we focused on,we automatically control our feelings,moods and emotions too.
Here's what I've been focused on lately :
1.why my friends didn't ask me to go anywhere this holiday
2.why my friends is too busy with their other friends so they forgot about me
3.why am I getting bad grades
4.why can't I do math as good as my friends
5.why can't I go to Paris for my holiday
6.why people are so annoying lately
7.why these TV shows are so boring
8.why there are no more Taylor Swift's new song
9.why can't I have a great singing voice

and many more,the list is getting longer that's so scary for me. The point is,I've been too focused on these bad things instead of :
1.I can always ask my friends to hang out,it's holiday !
2.I can always contact my friends via socmed
3.I can always study,I'm so grateful I got a second-chance
4.STUDY !!! HARD !!
5.there are many exciting place near my hometown I've never visited before,as exciting as Paris !
6.no comments,it's just my moody alter-ego being selfish
7.be grateful,I have TV cables while there are so many others that don't
8.I've got plenty of great songs already..
9.I can always learn how to sing well :)

see ? if we focused on the positive things that happened to our life,we will always be grateful. And I'm 130% sure you will be happier if you keep focused on these positive things.
here's a song to cheer up the mood :

The Best Day

I'm five years old
It's getting cold
I've got my big coat on

I hear your laugh
And look up smiling at you
I run and run

Past the pumpkin patch
And the tractor rides
Look now -- the sky is gold
I hug your legs and fall asleep
On the way home

I don't know why all the trees change in the fall
I know you're not scared of anything at all
Don't know if Snow White's house is near or far away
But I know I had the best day
With you today

I'm thirteen now
And don't know how my friends
Could be so mean

I come home crying and you hold me tight and grab the keys

And we drive and drive
Until we've found a town
Far enough away

And we talk and window-shop
Until I've forgotten all their names

I don't know who I'm gonna talk to
Now at school
I know I'm laughing on the car ride home with you
Don't know how long it's gonna take to feel okay
But I know I had the best day
With you today

I have an excellent father
His strength is making me stronger
God smiles on my little brother
Inside and out
He's better than I am

I grew up in a pretty house
And I had space to run
And I had the best days with you

There is a video
I found from back when I was three
You set up a paint set in the kitchen
And you're talking to me

It's the age of princesses and pirate ships
And the seven dwarfs
Daddy's smart
And you're the prettiest lady in the whole wide world

Now I know why all the trees change in the fall
I know you were on my side
Even when I was wrong
And I love you for giving me your eyes
Staying back and watching me shine

And I didn't know if you knew
So I'm taking this chance to say
That I had the best day
With you today

Happy Mother's day :)

Quote of The Day

"Life is full of little interruptions"
-Taylor Swift

Happy

three things that make me happy tonight :-)

1.this photo looked so good.

2.I've been obsessed with the song "Come Back,Be Here" although I think the lyric should be "this is not fair,that you're not there" but still,it's soooo goodd I've listened to it for about 987278392754928398279 times and didn't get bored.

3.this is a very cute photo of Kenci 

good night !!!! xx

15

when you're fifteen,somebody tells you they love you. you gotta believe them
when you're fifteen,feeling like there's nothing to figure out
when you're fifteen,don't forget to look before you fall

first day of being fifteen !!! I'm so happy but also so sad. It means that I've passed a year and I think I didn't do many great things at 14. And also I felt like 15 is sooooo old,older that it should be,older than it should look like. when you're fifteen,it feels like you go through the maturity door,so go take a deep breath before you enter it. when you're fifteen it feels like you know everything,but you are not. I'm so glad that I kept this fact in mind. you never know anything compared to what you will know someday.I hope fifteen would be another great year of my life. But I'm afraid because fifteen would be a huge change for me. (finally) going to highschool,leaving my junior high school,leaving my friends,my past. a whole new beginning. I will surely miss my friends a lot ! yes,we'll keep updated about each other but it won't be the same again. I will miss MTsN Malang I,all the teachers,the headmistress,even the boring lunch menu. even thinking about it makes me feel a little bit sad but NOOO today is my birthday ! I should feel happy about it ! I'm going to have a small party at 9 a.m so I better prepare. here's to cheer up my mood :

go laugh at this ugly edits of mine :D

Done.

our job is finally done guys,we held the position handover ceremony for Paskibra Matsanewa. For the new organizer please keep your promise and make us proud !

Dog Days

Hola,december is the last month of the year. 2012 is going to end very soon. I've felt great joy and great pain this year. there are some highlights of this year,yet some downs that you might have read some in my previous posts. I don't know,writing it in a blog kinda makes everything feel so sensible. I feel like I can understand life more when it comes into paragraph. I can understand more when it comes to a chorus in a song, a paragraph in a diary blog, or maybe just a simple line in a conversation. I can never see the big picture of what is really going on.

Study tour was one of the best highlight of my 2012. the preparation,the study tour itself and also the memories. boy,I wish I could rewind that moments. And I can never forget how I got good grades on math,feels so wonderful, I wish I could rewind that moment. I can never forget how Taylor premiering her first single from Red in August. How crazy I was when I first hear We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together. I can never forget what I'm feeling when I hold my copy of Red,or when my lithograph is on my mail box. I wish I could rewind that moment but I can't. Time won't let me.

Time,it's always time. Time forbid us to go back to those happy places. Time force us to move on,forget things,let them go. But memories forbid us to forget what we felt that day and memories also let us to somehow feel some part of the emotions that we felt that day,the day that time has took away.

I don't know why but I feel so many sadness this december. It's Taylor's birthday,it's also my birthday. I was supposed to be happy,yes. But things going on in my life and I feel like a hamster running inside of a ball (yes,that's a weird analogy). I try to help myself and people that I love around me as much as I could but I didn't go anywhere. I felt so tired running around trying to get things done,but I didn't go anywhere. I hate the fact that life goes on around me and people told me "It's none of your business,you should study hard and that's it" well I think that's fake. I think that's not how we should think about life. I think we really should realize that there are REAL problems that people have to face. There are real problems that are waiting for us. If we act like it doesn't exits,that just means we run from  the problem. And let me tell you as a person who has been going through A LOT of things like that : it won't solve your problem.

I've been so confused with what I'm going through right now. I've been forced to choose between two things that I love. I've been forced to face people with powers beyond me. I've been forced to raise my math grades (which is impossible) and I've been forced to do soooo many impossible things. I guess being positive is just so hard right now. It's not that I don't want to see the positive side. The truth is, there are no positive sides.

I can only ask Allah for more and more of His blessings. Bismillah....

EEEP !!! - 3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAYLOR ALISON SWIFT ! :)

AND ALSO 3 DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY !!! YAY :-D

DECEMBER DAYS IS MAKING ME HAPPY.

cat-astrophy

2-5

I'm using my "Twilight" softlens,you can get them here

it's been a while,3-6 !!!

it's been a while since my last countdown post. I'm pretty busy with exams lately :/ but here I am ! 3 days to Taylor's birthday OMG it's so cloooseee !!

7-9 and a little bit more.

I also designed my invitation card,what do you think ? :)

10-7

11-8

9-12

today :)

10-13

it's supposed to be posted yesterday but....oh well.

D-I-Y : Doorsign

Hi ! So I've got some free time and I made this not-so-cool-but-I-like-it doorsign.

Here's what you need :
1.Superglue
2.Papers with printed patterns

3.blank A4 paper

4.Lots and lots of die-cuts

5.decorations (basically,anything you like,could be photos,studs,etc)

6.this is the most important stuff : Rhinestones ! :)

You can buy all these stuff at Paperland,or any craft store near you :)

Steps :
1.Select a patterned paper,make sure it's your favorite one ! :)
2.Cut it into A4 size,you can use the blank paper as your guide
3.Make an image file containing what's your doorsign is going to be. I wrote "cool kids cannot enter this room" Make sure you measured the image size as big as an A4 paper
4.Print it on your patterned paper
5.Decorate your plain doorsign !

here's mine :)

enjoy! 

Back To December

hi ! so it's finally December. Time flies so fast sometimes it scares me. But you know what's fun in December ? christmas ! I'm not celebrating it but the environment was sooo soothing :) You know what else is fun in December ? Taylor's birthday ! it's on 13th December,she will be 23 ! and alsoo......MY BIRTHDAY !!! Yippeee !!! it's on 16th December (yes,so close to Taylor's!!) that's the day where every wishes do come true,right ? :)
December means the end of the year,that means it's time for us to look back at 2012 and think about what we''ve done in this past year. Make a resolution ! there's no "too early" for resolution :)

my 2013 resolution :
1.Lose some weight
2.Study hard
3.Get eccepted on Public Senior Highschool 1
4.Be nice to everyone
5.See Taylor's concert
6.Gain some height
7.Lose some weight
8.Lose some weight
9.Lose some weight
10.Lose some weight

that's pretty much of it !

and also,listen to my covers here ?

Foster The People - Pumped Up Kicks

Gwen Stefani - Sweet Escape

xoxo

Me !