2015 ?

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OMG A FEW MONTHS OF HIATUS

I thought this was supposed to be a routine kind of thing -_-
oh well you know me and all my teenage hormones

2015....time flew so fast. I feel like I can't even imagine a year called 2015,don't know exactly why. I just thought that this is not supposed to be here right now. Time flew so fast,too fast that it is getting scary. Now I have to be honest with you, I don't have anything particular to write tonight. I just feel like I need to write something on my blog...thanks to kak Jasmine who encouraged me to start writing again by saying a few nice words about my writings hahaha.

Hmm, I guess I'll just write what I have been up to lately.
Time can change everything, the way we think about something, the way we feel about something, the way we respond to something, you get the idea. These past few months....I think my priorities and dreams have been shifted. Does this mean I'm not as focused and determined as I thought I was ? I don't know..I guess it's normal at this age but does this mean I keep making excuses ?????????

I think too much

My parents,especially my mom have always wanted be to be a doctor. I do want to be a doctor too, I mean, who wouldn't ? but getting into med school is hard, let alone "surviving" in it. Many people said that being a doctor is a life-long learner. It's a never ending journey because humans are such a complicated being. Beautiful, yet complicated. I myself find some excitement in finding out why our body work in such ways. It makes me remember how great and powerful Allah is. Also, being a doctor means you are an "extension" of God's hand. You are one of his ways of healing people....how amazing is that.

I used to think like "omg being a doctor would be soooo cool" but now that I have read some articles about what being a doctor actually feels like, and also a few articles about doctor's ethic, I think I have a clearer image of what being a doctor actually is. I used to be drawn into the excitement of saying "yes, I'm a med school student" but now I feel like it would be such a pleasure and a huge honour to be able to heal people.

Does this mean I'm giving up my dreams of going to Parsons ?
I don't know..I don't think I can answer that right now. A big part of me still want that American dream. Moving to New York, doing what I love and get paid for it. But the almost-as-big part of me also want to be a doctor..maybe stay in Indonesia for a few months before I move to New York ?

You might think "What's up with you and New York ?" I don't know..as a child I've always wanted to visit America. New York, in particular. I love every piece of it, I could write another essay about why I love New York so I guess I'd better not write about it here hehe.

To be honest, being a doctor seems to be a more achievable dream than going to Parsons. but I thought if your dreams don't scare you, they're not big enough, right ?

Revolutionary

Work Work Work !!!!!!!!!!!

Seriously, remember on 10th grade I said that the teachers always give tons of work to do daily ? well,it gets worst on the 11th grade. I fall asleep everyday from 3-5 pm. You thought I'd have extra energy to do all of those stuff at night do you ? no,I still sleep at 8-9 pm everyday. That's just how much energy I needed.

Or maybe I'm just that lazy.

Anyways, I've been enjoying the sophomore life ! It's great having juniors and being able to do more stuff in my organisation. I've been able to schedule more photoshoot and it has been done monthly now ~~ We even had the chance to shoot the basketball player of my school. Though they didn't make it to the so-called 'Fantastic Four' I know they've done their best. Congratulations and I hope you'll be able to make Bhumi Mitreka Satata prouder in the future :)

I also have been given the opportunity to work with the school magazine (which is,sadly,absent last year) at first I thought it would be fun but organising 30-40 people's mind into one work is not easy. but Bismillah, I hope everything went well.

Lately, everything in my life has been going through some 'revolutionary' time. Starting with myself, I think I'm starting to understand people better. I'm taking chances I've never taken before. I am also got lots of upgrade on my adapting skills,socially to be precise. I feel wiser, and I've accepted the fact that some people will not like me straight for who I am, they also need adjustments and adaptation, just like I did. And if they ended up not liking me, that's their problem :D

Now talking about the blog, I haven't posted any outfit posts since like forever. I think besides time,passion is also the problem. I mean, I should make time when I don't have any, but the fact that I didn't....does that mean I'm not who I am when I started this blog ?

no

I still love beautiful clothes,I still love beauty in general. Photographs, the photography itself, clothes, design and stuff like that. But I guess blogging is not the right way to channel it. I don't know yet what is, but I think I'll start with photography ?

so what happens to the blog ?

It stays right here ! I'm trying to do something constantly and so far this blog survived, so I think there's no reason to put it down. I think I'll turn my blog into journal where I can just write anything I want and thought about. I will use this blog as a media of sharing my experiences and my feelings about my surroundings. That's why I changed the title :D

So I hope you'll still enjoy reading my blog. I don't know whom I meant by "you" ,but I hope it's a real person out there
You could've been on any website right now but here you are on my blog.

Thank You.

Top Movies To Watch This Holiday !

I know it's a little bit late to post this, since most of you have only less than a week holiday. But I thought it will be fun to spend the last days of holiday cuddling with your loved ones in front of TV watching chick flicks all day long. It's Ramadhan so that means no popcorn, but it's still as fun!

1.Letters To Juliet

I am soooooo in love with Amanda Seyfried ! I mean...who doesn't ? She's practically one of those living barbies. And I love the way the story goes, two love stories in one movie. I cried every time the grandmother (I forgot her name) reads the letter, it's so beautiful :') what if...

2.The Proposal

I was watching some TV when a profile of Ryan Reynolds came up and they mentioned his super good acting in The Proposal. I went to the movie rentals and rent it right away. It was sooooooooo hilarious, I think that was one the loudest laugh I've ever got from a movie. I also love Sandra Bullock and her floating-on-the-sea Louis Vuittons :-)

3.Confession of A Shopaholic

Bag...Gucci ! This is my go to movie every time I need a mood booster. Go Isla Fisher ! I've also read the entire book series and it was awesome. Actually no, it was waaayyyy better than the movie ! Too bad they didn't make the sequel :-(

4.We're The Millers

This holiday is the first time I watched this movie, I thought it would pass my list of good movies, but it didn't ! It has drama yet they wrap it in such a comical way that it is enjoyable ! I cried (laughing) when I watched this movie. Especially that scene when it's Kenny's (is that his name ?) turn to play the guess game :-) Oops, explicit material here. Better watch the movie alone, no parents allowed !

P.S : sorry for the blurry image. I don't know why it is so hard to find a good one !

That's it ! wait what ? that's it ? only 4 ?

sadly yes, I guess I am pretty picky but it is what it is. Or maybe I just haven't rent that many movies yet... I don't know. But if you really want the fifth one, you can try and watch Forgetting Sarah Marshall. It's pretty good but it didn't make it to the list :p by the way this list contains movies from the drama-comedy genre only. Or as I would like to call it chick-flicks. If you love any other genre, Jinni and IMDB is a great place to look for recommendation !

I also downloaded this cool app called Discvr Movies. It basically do the same thing as Jinni and IMDB, but they have a cool user interface and it's on my cellphone ! So one point for easy access. I'm sure IMDB also have an app but Discvr Movies is worth the try. The only bad thing is that the developers haven't updated it yet for quite a while, so they don't have that great database of movies. But it still have thousands of old ones !

Besides movies, I am also addicted to youtube videos lately. Well, I've been addicted to youtube since a long time ago, but I've recently checked out those famous youtubers' channel and it is quite entertaining. You should check them out too. My favorites are AwesomeAlanna, Pointlessblog, and Marcus Butler.

Great Kelvin where have you been they've been there for ages and you have just found them "quite entertaining" ?

Anyways I hope you enjoy your holiday ! Where did you spend it ?

Sudden Urge

Hi ! it's 4.30 a.m in the so called morning on the first day of July ! Happy Ramadhan to all moslems around the world and to people who celebrates it. I've just had my sahur and to be honest it was....quite ordinary. I don't know, I don't think I have those Ramadhan vibes this year; or even the year before. I think everyone just got too busy with their own life that they forgot how to celebrate the merry of being together. I mean...somehow, that's what Ramadhan is all about right ? I've never want fasting and the breakfasting itself to be some kind of a routine. You know, just because we have to do it every year.

Oh ! Today is the 10th day of my school's holiday. And to be honest I haven't done much yet. I always complain about how I don't have all the time in the world to do stuff I like and stuff that I don't like but I have to do (haha), but now that I have it, I don't really know what to do. I basically just spend most of the days watching chick-flicks all day long (thank god movie rentals !) I did spend a day with my friends in Goa Cina, but it's nothing special since I've been there before. The only difference is the people I came with...but I guess it's better than nothing at all. I took some pictures and I love it, would you check it out and see if you like it too ? click click !

I usually talk about life lessons in my blog, but lately I haven't got any. Is it because my lack of social interactions ? God only knows. But I do have this thought that people are somehow afraid of confessing or confronting their feelings most of the times because they are afraid of what the outcome might be. Now you can say that this is the sophisticated way of our brains and our body to protect us from being hurt psychologically -since research says that we react to psychological pain the same way we react to physical pain- but I think keeping your thoughts and feelings to yourself also...hurts, in many other ways.

Lately I have had this kind of situation where I've got so much to say, yet I decided to shut myself up. You know what they said, words you'll regret the most is the one you didn't speak. But what if -what if- you tell people about how you feel, or what you want to say, yet they did nothing about it. Hahaha, that hurts too, believe me.

I used the word hurt and pain a lot in most of my writing that even I think I should've overcome it somehow. That I should've got used to it by now. But it isn't the case. "You see, the thing about pain, it demands to be felt" and yes, I am quoting you, Mr John Green sir.

If you have all of that figured out, will you help me ?

Kelvin, signing off.

Quote Of The Day

"You choose total freedom, but you got total loneliness"

-Anonymous

I Just Want to Write

I can't believe tomorrow is the finals. That means I've spent a year being a senior high school student. A year felt very fast for me, but who knows what opportunity might come next year, right ? I will obviously have more responsibility since all extracurricular activities are maintained and supervised by the 11th grade. Can't wait to see what will happen !

Oh ! have I told you that I have this portfolio blog thingy where I post all of my work ? I will really love it if you do a visit ! (click click) It only consists of 3 works by now but I'll update it constantly. And if you do a visit, please leave some (constructive) comments !

I guess I'm running out of stuff I want to write right now.
So.....
Here's the boob hitting scene from New Girl which always successfully make me laugh.

P.S : don't watch it with your kids or your parents.

5 Years From Now

HI ! sorry I haven't blogged a while. I'm always overwhelmed with tasks and assignments from my professor. Well,I guess you can't be a lazy person if you're studying in one of the best art school in the world,right ? I am currently at my sophomore year in Parsons The New School for Design. I haven't blogged for a while...so I guess I'll just tell you how it goes. You all know that I have this crazy sort of naïve dream of going to Parsons right ? so since then I've decided to use all of my time during high school to pursue that dream. And it's not only about my happiness,but I also want to show people that I do deserve what I want. Alhamdulillah...like JKT48 said, hard work never traits hehehe. It was probably the busiest 3 years of my life yet, I mean...with no support from my family, I basically have to do everything on my own. And as if it can't get worse,I can't even draw. So that adds up my to-do list before going here. during that time,I haven't actually thought about what's next after I'm admitted. I guess for me the important thing is just being accepted and..I don't know,hopefully my parents will understand what I want to do with my life ?

Besides Parsons,I am also admitted at RISD. But I fell in love with Parsons a long time ago,so I choose it instead. during my first year,I learned a lot. Like,a lot. I don't even know how my brain can process so much information like that. But yeah..I did. I do have to make a huge adjustment. And as you know,being someone who is not that good at adapting,I have a hard time adjusting myself with the new social and academic state. But...I passed it,and I guess for me that's the hardest part. So..I've been enjoying my life so far ! New York is a fast-paced city. Everyone is always busy and productive. I mean...who wouldn't ? you're in a big city ! I guess I'll be damned if I ever spend more than 3 days of being lazy in New York. I just love it,everything here. The shops,the streets,the nightlife...even The New School itself. People said that you have to constantly make connections in New York (thank god emails !)just to make your life a little bit easier. I mean,who knows what someone you meet in this random restaurant can do for you ?

I learned a lot just by living in the city. I learned that there are actually nice people,even strangers who act nicely to you. People said that New York is mean,but I think aggressive is the right term. Sure,there are people who actually swears when I accidentally bumped in to them when I was walking down the streets,but there are also people who helped me picking up all of my drawings during windy days. I guess it's just a matter of perspective....

The New School University Center is great ! I actually met those people who gave me advice and reviewed my portfolio. Mr.Rocco,kak Anna and kak Sheena and all. We don't always hang out together since they're all currently in their senior years (which is super busy,believe me) but we always meet up somewhere every now and then. I must admit that I'm not the popular guy in the university,but I made some friends. Parsons chained most of their students during weekends,let alone weeknights. So I don't have that much time to go out partying and stuff. But living here for almost two year I have developed this skill of a better time management. And I can *cough* professionally *cough* choose which assignments to skip and to do (hehehe).

I do feel a little bit lonely sometimes,but I keep reminding myself of how lucky I am to even be here. I can't imagine the day when I have to leave New York,but every hello ends with a good bye,right ?

I can't wait to tell more about my adventure in the concrete jungle !

Kelvin here,signing off.


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it was a great imagination,wasn't it ?